self love.

where to begin?

i've had a not so awesome few..several, months. and i finally, finally, decided to do something about it.

my comfort zone and regular hang out has quickly become my bed. reading in bed, netflixing in bed, eating in bed..you get the idea. fatigue has become my new friend-- it takes me hours to fall asleep, i toss and turn all night long, wake up feeling exhausted- and go through the day feeling sleepy and foggy, never fully awake. never waking up feeling rested. i take any and every opportunity i have to nap. ive been to church once since october. i'm off every single friday from work and spend it doing laundry, chores around the house, sitting in bed watching tv, and napping. i've suddenly realized i've developed some kind of social anxiety- i make plans and instantly regret them, wanting to get out of the house but wanting to stay home.

last week i decided to work on putting some effort in to showing self love.

i made an appointment for a physical; i cant remember the last time i had one, and i'm hoping some blood work will show something 'off' to explain the constant exhaustion.

i made an appointment for a teeth cleaning, i'm just way over due.

i made an appointment that i have cancelled and rescheduled several times, at the dermatologist to have a few questionable spots checked cause apparently thats what adults do?

i also made an appointment with a therapist, to start seeing as regularly as i can afford, to really work on stuff. (i started that last week)

i went back to church week before last, and plan to go this sunday as well. i joined a small group that starts next month and seems to be perfect for my life right now.

when i can save up some money i'm treating myself to a hair cut/color/highlight; i maybe get my hair done twice a year- and lets be real ladies, its a hell of a pick me up.

also, when i can afford it, i want to get mysekf a working diffuser and re-stock my oils. it helped my mood, sleep, and overall health when i used them regularly.

i've looked in to a yoga class down the street to potentially give a try once a week...i've yet to go but seriously thinking about it. courage needed.

so, baby steps.