7 weeks!

8/29/11

i am now 7 weeks and 3 days! My first doctor's appointment is Wednesday (day after tomorrow) and we can hardly wait. We'll go public soon after :)

i am feelin' some nausea today! i havent really had morning sickness; i've only gotten sick 2-3x. but today i am definitely feelin' it. the hardest part about it, to me at least, is being at work during it. i don't necessarily MIND it..(which sounds crazy-but like i've been saying, bring on whatever for my little baby!) but i just don't want to get sick AT work, and our bathroom walls here are PAPER thin so i just...don't have a ton of privacy. not to mention its hard to concentrate on my work when i feel like barfing :(

i heard this past wkend of a couple i know that miscarried...and she was around my due date. it was like a slap in the face reminder that, that could (and has) happened to me. my heart broke for them, and i got paranoid all over again. i'm still praying and hoping this pregnancy goes smoothly. i want to enjoy it..not be stupid paranoid over everything! i know i'll probably always worry about one thing or another (part of bein' a mom i suppose) but i really want to be able to enjoy this experience. i totally took another pregnancy test...yeah i know..sounds crazy. i just needed that reassurance that 'yes kelly, you ARE still pregnant'. i really don't want to go through losing a baby, again.

i guess all i can do is keep praying!

more people are finding out i'm pregnant. we have a new girl at work, she is so sweet- she's only been here for 3 weeks. this morning all the girls were in the break room and we were just chatting: new girl totally called me out on being pregnant lol, she said "oh i've known that kelly!" shes a mommy so i guess she just knew!

i saw my granny this past weekend and she said "i want to ask you a question" -- i KNEW shes was going to ask if i was pregnant...and i wasnt ready for them to know yet (planned on telling the grand parents after my appointment) so i said "just don't!"

of course she did! so my granny knows now (and i'm sure she told my pawpaw). she told me "i know this one is going to go well, nothing bads gonna happen this time". i dont know how she can be so sure- but i really hope she's right.

SO anxious for my doctor's appointment, i can't imagine seeing our baby on the u/s and hearing the heartbeat... its going to be emotional thats for sure!

cravings & being ahead of the game...

8/22/11

cravings. i never thought i'd have that for some odd reason. but even at 6 weeks, i do!

-banana peppers : so random, i've never really been a fan but love them on pizza & sandwiches now!

- fruit : i've been craving watermelon & peaches specifically (hey its healthy!) today after work i went and got watermelon, peaches, plums, and pears!

- sweets: bad news, i know. luckily i havent indulged in these. but its usually after i eat or late at night i'm craving something sweet. not like a big piece of cake or something (but i have been craving my SIL beccas yellow cake with chocolate icing-SO GOOD!) but just like a little piece of chocolate.

crazy! last night joey asked me what i wanted for dinner, and i thought for a minute and said " beef flavored ramen noodles, and a PBJ"..he looked at me with the most confused/disgusted face and then just kinda laughed lol. he made it for me- and it was DELICIOUS!

Saturday morning i woke up craving my mom's cinnamon toast..which i havent had since i was little!

and being ahead of the game...yeah. I've already started a registry...or two. i'm a big time planner- always have been! just been adding the basic necessities- none of the fun stuff yet since i wont know what i'm having till November (that seems SO far away!!). ive been chatting with claire & becca on what they recommend and what we really need & what we dont.

AND we already have names picked out haha, bedding for girl/boy, we've already gotten one piece of furniture:

my MIL found it on craigslist and it was exactly what i wanted! it is in AMAZING condition, originally bought from Georgia Baby. LOVE IT! we went and picked it up this past weekend and my brother and hubs got it put together pretty quickly! i can't say enough how much i love it!

and my mom is buying us our crib! I CANT WAIT!

we decided to do white furniture regardless of gender, that way its stuff we can hold on to for a while and can use for future kids girl or boy.

now all I need is a glider (all the ones i like are stupid pricey, of course) and i want to find a bedside table to put next to it for late night feedings so i have somewhere to set stuff on.

*i can't remember (little foggy these days) if i already mentioned the old furniture..that was the french provincial from my aunt ruth? joey really wasnt a fan so we decided to give it back to my dad to sell and get something we both like. i was kinda bummed at first but im actually really excited at all the new stuff we're looking at :)

SO MUCH FUN!!! i can't wait to know what we're having so i can go nuts decorating! My FIL is coming over soon to install a white fan in there (it gets hot in that room for some reason) and take off the closet door (I HATE that door, going to do a curtain instead- totally copying young house love!).

we gotta move the guest bed too...joey wont give up his mancave so im losing my guest room :(

a few more people know now, not surprised! -- we're excited and feeling less paranoid with every day that passes and i cant wait to go public with it!

i'm still feeling good, no more morning sickness so far! just serious fatigue & still with the bloating just in my tummy- so the belly band is still a god send for my work pants! this past weekend i finally gave in to my fatigue and just let myself nap and be lazy. yesterday i swear i barely got out of the bed. joey was in heaven playing video games- i just laid in bed with the dogs and watched movies & all my DVRed shows he hates watching-dozing in and out. it was SO NICE! the fatigue is the hardest at work, cause all i want to do is nap and be lazy and i obviously cant do that at work. ive heard it goes away in the 2nd trimester (and comes back in the 3rd lol) so i'm looking forward to having some more energy back.

thats all for now! :)

*taken 8/23/11 at 6 wks 5 days *

told you... HOLY BLOATING! i look way more pregnant than i am! which makes me so scared about gaining weight :( but i know right now its just bloating so that makes me feel better!

little scare

8/18/11

well i had a little scare today...

ive been a little stressed at work this week, and especially today. next thing i know- i have a bit of bleeding. i got super upset, super fast and the first thing that crossed my mind "oh god, not another miscarriage".

i tried to take a deep breath and calm myself down- i know stressing will not help! i called the doc and they quickly called me back. i was told im fine...so i'm taking comfort in that. i havent had any spotting since then and that was a few hours ago. but WHAT a scare. by far, the worst feeling ever. feeling so out of control, and just pure panic!

feeling a lot better now-- and feeling even better that tomorrow marks 6 weeks for me! :)

definitely praying a LOT these days <3

holy bloated!

8/16/2011

well, today at work is the first time (at least at work) that my belly is noticeable. I mean I probably just look fat,ha. but my work pants? not fitting, or not buttoning and barely zipping. Usually my pants just feel a tad tight by the end of the day but today I had a hard zipping them this morning!

so I broke out the be-band! (belly band, bella band etc) which is a life saver- its working like a charm! but that doesn't help the bloating and the fact that I all of a sudden look super fat, JUST in my tummy.

oh well, I guess co workers can just think I'm eating a little too much right now...lol.

Tonight we're meeting my mom and MIL to look at some furniture for the baby! Joey really wasn't a fan of the antique set I got from my Dad; so this past wkend my Dad came to pick it up. Now all thats in the baby room is a queen bed (no idea what we're going to do with it)-- so we're going to do some furniture shopping tonight and have some dinner with the grandmas! :)

2 weeks from tomorrow is my first appointment- I wish it would HURRY UP!

the secret is leaking...

8/15/2011

On my way to 6 weeks :) Praise God!!

I went to Charlotte this past weekend, for Aunt Mary & Uncle Mike's anniversary! It was a surprise :) I think it went really well and it was a successful weekend! I love spending time with them up there too.

BUT I was wondering if anyone would figure out I'm pregnant :) I pretty much ALWAYS have a glass of wine with Aunt Mary, and enjoy a couple beers with the boys. I'm not an alcoholic by any means, its just what we do lol. Not to mention I was SO BLOATED on Saturday (of course) so it was kinda hard to suck in my stomach!

I was really tired Saturday, like REALLY tired! that with the bloated tummy and lack of booze...def a red flag! No one said anything to me though. The next day after Mass Aunt Mary and Uncle Mike both congratulated me :) I knew SOMEONE had to have figured it out! I told them we were waiting until after the 8 week appointment and they of course understood :)

Claire & Nick gave me a little gift, the cutest onesie and a wash cloth!

It was my first little gift for the baby and it was so sweet! so cute. I can't wait to start shopping :) I am so excited!!

Still feeling good- no more morning sickness (so far) and as mentioned- fatigue and bloating big time!

I fell asleep on the couch last night a little after 8 and Joey woke me up to get in bed around 9 lol. I just cant seem to get enough sleep. Woke up 2x to pee and of course had a hard time going back to sleep!

but as I said- ALL worth it for our baby :)

more updates soon... !

5 weeks :)

8/11/2011

As Joey said " I've beat my high score" ! haha, I am five weeks today and it's a great feeling. i am officially further along than i was last time, so that brings a bit of comfort/relief/hope that everything will go well this time around.

Its so hard not to tell EVERYONE! but I know we need to wait till after my doctor's appointment ( 2 weeks and 6 days away but who's counting??!) but its hard not to share the excitement. I'm meeting up with Vicky today after work and its going to be difficult to NOT just spit it out and tell her! I've been talking to Christina some this week through email, and same thing! Its so hard not telling my bestfriends! Lauren even asked me when I thought we would try again since I'd been posting so much baby stuff to my Pinterest lately lol...ugh I wanna tell everyone :) I can't wait to spread the word! Just a couple more weeks!

I'm def. feeling pregnant- a lot more so than last time.

- Fatigue (in bed by 9, tired ALL day, and naps on wkends!)

-Cramping (Stretching uterus)

- Bloating (my pants are TIGHT by the end of the day!)

- Morning sickness ( but only 3x so far)

- Hormones... (PLEASE pray for Joey haha they have been craaazzy!)

but i'll take any symptom, good or bad! Cause that means...I'm pregnant :) so thats a good sign! Willing to endure whatevers needed for our little bun in the oven!

I can't believe I'm gonna be a mommy :)

Answered Prayers!

8/8/2011

well... should i just come out and say it?...:)

(Picture we used to tell Parents/Siblings-this was for my SIL Becca!)

*My due date is also 4/12/2012, i was a day off!!*

Thats right!! God is GOOD!! We found out on 8/1/11 I was 3 weeks and 3 days I think? I am now 4 weeks and 3 days! BUT whenever I post this I'll be 8 weeks. I'm saving this till we make it public :)

We decided after what happened last time it would be best to keep this to ourselves till I'm further along. We did however decide to tell parents/siblings. We just figured we would need their prayers and support no matter what happened. Needless to say everyone is really excited :) And we are too- but cautiously/nervously/ excited. Its sad that I cant just scream it from the roof tops and NOT worry...but its hard not to after what we've been through.

We are thankful, excited, happy, nervous, scared, hopeful and just..blessed. My first appointment isnt until 8/31 so we're praying hard all goes well up to that point and then we will make the news public.

So far I'm feeling...ok! I have a LOT more symptoms than before. Fatigue for sure, little cramping but its mostly gone away, sore breasts, hormones are THROUGH the roof (poor Joey lol), and I'm pretty sure all of a sudden I have restless leg syndrome- SO not joking. very random, and not fun. A little bit of "morning sickness" but its been at night. But hey- I figure the sicker I am the better, cause last time I had minimal symptoms. So bring it on!!

I'm so excited and just praying all goes well :)