bible study.

my pastor and i would casually talk about me leading a bible study or small group, i would laugh and say " NO way,nope.".... i had zero interest.


then i decided to organize/host a bible study for some ladies, ha. funny right? who am i?

we all picked out a study to do on Mary and Martha- and i have to say, i am loving it. we've met twice now! a small group of girls meeting at my house once a week. i was super nervous about leading but there is a lot less pressure when i'm surrounded by friends!

the first week we stuck to right at an hour long meeting. this week? we went two hours without really noticing, and i dont think anyone seemed to mind! and whoa yall, feelin' all the feels.

i see God working through our group, and touching the lives of all of us- it is a pretty cool thing to witness. this week we laughed a lot, shed some tears, and just really opened up to each other. i saw girls reaching out and helping one another, lots of hugs, lots of prayers. it is just so cool to see-- and i've been thinking about it ever since!

and it was a breakthrough for me personally! yall....i prayed for the first time out loud, in front of people. whooooa. even kendall said 'kelly i've never heard you pray before!' -- it was a big first step for me. i've always had a lot of anxiety about that. our first meeting i flat out said ' i don't want to pray! who wants to pray!?' ha...and then i was kicking myself- cause what kind of leader does that make me? i put this thing together, i needed to step up and lead. and i'm so glad i did. it was scary and exhilarating all at the same time.

but it took me a while. i've been active in my faith for a while now, but still hadn't stepped up to the plate to pray in front of others. baby steps-- i started by praying with my four year old! even that felt weird and scary to me, but after a few weeks i got more comfortable- joey even heard me pray out loud for the first time while putting our little to bed. so, i finally pulled the trigger and stepped up to lead during our bible study. it felt good!

i love seeing how these friendships are forming and growing between these girls. how trusting we are with each other, raw, transparent, and honest. the legitimate love and care we have throughout the group.

amazing things yall. i am literally witnessing God's work-- because i am paying close attention, and being very intentional and dedicated. i'm thankful He put it in my heart to step up and create this space/group/experience for these ladies and i.