runnin' on E...

sleepy. like more sleepy than i was with a newborn, or when i was pregnant...THAT is pretty darn sleepy.

i've been back at work 3 weeks now and its starting to wear on me! it was so much easier to keep a clean house, have dinner ready, and enjoy my baby while i was home on maternity leave. now i feel like i'm just always moving, always doing something. i don't even get to see adelynn until 5:30 everyday when i pick her up, cause she's still sleeping when i leave for work :( this is what my day looks like:

-6:45 am wake up and get ready for work, make coffee, let the dogs out, get dinner started (if its crockpot!)
-7:20 am out the door and driving to work
-8am-5pm CRAZY day at work (especially right now cause we're in the middle of moving offices,so its chaos!)
- 5:30pm pick up adelynn and head home
-6pm start dinner
-7pm eat dinner
-7:30-9ish pm do the dishes, soak up as much time with adelynn as possible

and i'm usually in bed anywhere from 9:30-10pm.... then wake up, and do it all over again. Weekends should be my saving grace, but lately they've been packed with plans and SO busy; throw a sick baby, laundry, dishes,etc. on top of that...and its not much of a weekend.


and all i really want to do is spend time with joey & adelynn, that is my priority. but its hard with so many other obligations getting in the way.

i know my coworkers are probably wondering why i look such a hot mess everyday- i gave up on makeup! my hair is easy, it dries curly...but ive been lookin ROUGH, and i just dont even care. i'd rather sleep a little longer than worry about makeup.

i don't really see life slowing down till September either- i have stuff on my calender almost every single weekend! insane. i miss my baby, so much. no more tears in the mornings- but during the day i just miss her. my heart aches!

friday night we have a double date with B&Z and i'm SO looking forward to it, its been a long time since joey & i have gone out. but feelin' a little torn, cause Meme is babysitting and its really the first time we've had to get a 'sitter'. feeling a little guilty about leaving her when thats time i can be spending with her. but i know itll be good for joey & i and its necessary to have that time. so im going to try and not think about it, and just enjoy it. i only have one other thing going on this weekend (Neen's dress fitting, woo!) and after that i'll have the rest of the weekend (i hope) to relax and spend time with my two favorite people.

this working mom stuff is no joke. still hope one day i can be a SAHM, that would be AMAZING!

Rough Weekend.

This weekend went WAY too fast for me.

Friday I picked Adelynn up after work and she was pretty congested, and had gunky eyes- poor baby. she never fussed, still her smiley self, but she just could not breath. we gave her a nice warm bath, bottle, and put her to bed. we turned on her humidifier for the first time hoping it would help. NORMALLY she sleeps through the night, but joey heard her over the monitor kinda choking so he got up to check on her. then he woke me up cause he said he felt like her breathing was really shallow- i agreed. normally you can see her chest rise/fall and hear her breathing clearly. so we called a 24 hours nurse line and chatted with them for a while, they suggested we call an ambulance and get her to the ER. we decided to jump in the car and take her ourselves, we made it in RECORD time. thankfully they weren't busy we we went right back to a room and waited on the doctor. she saw the doctor on call along with a respiratory doctor. they both said she was definitley congested, but it was something we just needed to let it run its course. they said she was probably choking on mucus. poor baby! so 4 hours later we finally headed home, it was just turning day light and we all crawled back in to bed at 6:45am and slept till about 10. we were WIPED out. but worth it, we'd much rather be safe than sorry.

they told us to keep an eye on it, and try to keep her nose as clear as possible, suctioning out everything we can.

when we got up later Saturday, she seemed a lot better. So we decided to keep our plans and head out to Marietta to see EE. We had an awesome time :) .... until later that evening. she started screaming and crying like never before, and nothing we were doing was calming her down. i got so upset that i started crying! it was breaking my heart seeing her like that, cause when we say she never cries...SHE.NEVER.CRIES. and usually i can figure out what the problem is and calm her down- nothing was working. thank god joey was calm, he told me to leave the room and calm down lol...so i walked outside called my SIL and just cried! i know that sounds so silly, but it was breaking my heart. i walk back inside and shes calm and quiet, joey just looks at me and says "shes fine babe. and you're NOT a bad mommy!" i kept saying over and over "i feel like the worst mommy right now cause i cant make her feel better!"

i think (looking back) she got over stimulated from being passed around all day and being outside all afternoon. i think between shots on thursday, being sick, ER on friday night, being passed around/outside saturday... this little girl had just had enough! i dont blame her!

Today we were planning on going to Brittany's college graduation, and i feel like the worst friend ever but i made the call to stay home. i felt like adelynn just needed a very CHILL day, and i didnt want to leave her. we stayed home all day long-- we did leave for about 2 hours for our weekly family dinner- but we didn't stay long, pretty much ate and ran! i didnt want her getting over stimulated again so we just made it quick and headed home.

i'm hoping tonight goes okay- she didn't finish her last bottle of the night so i'm wondering if that means night feeding tonight, we'll see. CRAZY weekend.

Speaking of the doctor- at exactly 10 weeks old she weighed 12 ibs 2 oz and 24 inches, she is consistently gaining 2 ibs and 2 inches between each doctor's visit! growing girl! the doctor said shes perfect and kept commenting on what a good baby she was. the nurse said the same thing and kept telling me how pretty she is! i mean, i of course agree ;) but it was cool hearing it from strangers- made me feel very proud!

it was so sad when they gave her the shots (one in each leg!) she cried, the type of cry where it was so hard no sound was coming out! i hugged and kissed on her for a bit and she calmed down, she was asleep in her car seat before i even checked out! she is amazing.

i love her so much. i can't say it enough. i just hope my baby girl feels better soon. and i hope this week FLIES so we can enjoy next weekend with her!

Father's Day Weekend!

What a weekend- and its almost over! :( Went by way too fast for me- but glad I got to spend so much time with my baby girl :)

Friday night we went over to the Freeman's for dinner! We hung out, ate, and watched some stand up comedy- so fun! But Adelynn started fussin, poor baby was gassy-- I could hear it and feel it in her tummy :( So we went home to give her a warm bath and calm her down-- bout 10 minutes later she was fine! So we told Britt and Zach to come on over to our house (they live in our neighborhood!) and hang out cause it was so early and we weren't ready to call it a night. Its easier here cause we have all baby's stuff here, and she went to bed shortly after so we stuck her in her crib and flipped the monitor on. We had so much fun with B & Z!

(Baby girl asleep at Britt and Zach's!)

Yesterday was super busy! We spent the morning just hangin' out, but then left to go run some errands. We took back a BUNCH of diapers to exchange at buy buy baby, so we could get the ones we prefer. Turns out they have an "as-is" section (who knew!?) so we got two boxes of Pampers, 234 count, for the price of ONE just because the boxes were damaged in shipping. um...THANK YOU! double the diapers for the same price, I dig it! Then we went by Absolutley Specialties to see my mom and Mrs.Elaine, but we couldn't stay long cause it was time for baby to eat!

Then Adelynn & I dropped daddy off at my in-laws. Him and his Dad were going to the Braves game last night! My College (YHC) had an alumni event, and so they had a full buffet, GREAT seats (or you could watch it at the 755 club), and the kicker...a meet & greet with Hank Aaron! As soon as I heard about it I knew it would be the perfect Father's Day gift for Joey and his dad!

(FIL, *Hank Aaron*, Joey)

Adelynn and I headed over to Neen's Wedding Shower! It was awesome seeing everyone, and for them to all finally meet my baby girl!

(All dressed up for the wedding shower!)

Afterward baby and I came home to hang out for the night, and I got her talkin' to me again- so managed to get this little video! (Sorry for the shaky camera, she was wigglin!)

Oh I just love her :)

and now, Father's Day! Joey & baby are still sleeping :) His gift was the Braves game with his Dad, and a new tervis tumbler covered in pictures of our baby girl!

The pictures really doesn't do them justice- they turned out AWESOME! Joey & I both use tervis tumblers a lot, he takes one to work everyday. Once I found out you could go on their website and 'design your own' I knew that would be perfect! (and of course...I had to get one for me too!)

Today we're plannin to be lazy this morning, then around lunch time head over to Wes's house to have a Fathers Day cook out with my mom's side of the family. Then we're doing dinner at my in-laws! My Dad and brother are both at the beach right now (wish we were!) so I won't see either of them today :(

I also want to do a little craft I found on Pinterest: http://www.theimaginationtree.com/2011/06/salt-dough-footprint-keepsakes.html

easy and fun! :)

So Happy Father's Day to all the daddys out there! Especially Joey ;) Adelynn loves him so much, and he is the best daddy to her. I love seeing them together. I couldnt have hoped for a better Father to my child!

(I love you babe!)

FIRST Laugh!

I dont know how we managed to be lucky enough to get it on film but we did! She was bein' cute with daddy so I whipped out the flip cam and started recording, then she full on LAUGHED! we'd heard giggles and coos but nothing like this! I could watch this over and over and over and over again! Love our baby girl!

back at work.

well. i'm back at work. sad day....

the first day was heartbreaking. i woke up an hour earlier so i could get fully ready to walk out the door, and just spend some time with her. BUT she was still asleep and so was joey- so i didnt wanna wake her selfishly. i just stood by her crib and whispered 'i love you'...and cried. a lot. then proceeded to cry the whole way to work. i managed to get my self together before walking into the office though. brittany even had a card, and amazing smelling yankee candle waiting for me to welcome me back- she's a good friend :)

once i got to work i started putting pictures of adelynn everywhere. then i set up our digital frame from home, that joey filled with pictures of adelynn. i put it right next to my computer screen so i can stare at her all day long. i did well at work- i didnt cry! i got down a couple times but didnt shed a tear. i missed her all day long though. we got the baby connect app- me, joey, and jackie-- so jackie updates it throughout the day so i know when shes sleeping, eating, diaper changes, etc. 1. it helps us keep track of her feeding/sleeping schedule but 2. it makes me feel like im still connected with her throughout the day, i know what shes doin' all the time, so its nice. I left at 5pm on the DOT and got to jackie's in record time-20 minutes. she was asleep when i got there, but when we got home she opened her eyes and looked at me--and smiled SO BIG it made me tear up. i think she missed her mommy :)

today was easier, no tears. i teared up a couple times, especially on my lunch break- started looking through all her pictures/videos on my phone and it made my heart hurt i missed her so bad. now we're home, and i've just been cuddling with her like crazy. i'm down tonight cause i just wish i could stay home with her. i hate leaving her every day. i dont want to miss a THING. i want to be the one to take care of her, raise her, teach her, laugh with her- everything! i miss my baby, plain n simple.

works going well-- my brain is MUSH and its only tuesday- havent worked it this hard since march, but i'm hangin' in there. it makes it easier having friends at work- they arent just coworkers there- theyre friends! candace and britt help me so much.

i'm down 60 ibs and still goin' strong. ive been taking my lunch- small,healthy portions- and no soda! 2 cups of coffee in the moring, then water the rest of the day! hoping i can keep it going.

well i've got a baby girl to go love on before she falls asleep, so thats all for now!

8 weeks old!

My baby girl is 8 weeks old tomorrow! where does the time go?? I feel like shes been here forever, but born just yesterday all at the same time!

This is my last week home on maternity leave, and its going by WAY too fast. I've had to start trying on all my pre-pregnancy work clothes, plan dinners/lunches, get together all her things for daycare... not fun. Its breaking my heart thinking about leaving her. I told Joey I may have to say my goodbyes here at home and let him take her that first day- so I can have time to get myself together before walking into the office! Its been amazing being home with her, I can't begin to explain how less stressed I've been. This is hands down the happiest few weeks of my life, all cause of her. I love spending my days with her, coaxing her to smile, taking photos/videos like crazy, just being a wife and mommy. THIS is what God put me here todo. Hopefully one day I CAN be a stay at home mom, we've made it our goal to make that happen but I know realistically it won't happen anytime soon. Wondering how I'm going to work 40+ hours a week, pick up baby girl, get home cook dinner, take care of her, get up to feed her in the night and do it all over again the next day....everyday. I see lots of coffee in my future!

Adelynn is drinking 6 oz bottles, and ALMOST sleeping through the night. I only get up once with her at night, feed her/change her, and she goes right back down. Sunday night she slept from 9:45pm-6am! I think that was a new record! After I fed her she went back down for a few more hours. She is AWESOME. She smiles all the time now and its my most favorite thing, she is so adorable when she smiles! She has started cooing and this past weekend we even heard a giggle! We've been trying to catch it on video but haven't been quick enough yet! Shes still super laid back, never cries, loves bath time... I can't say it enough- SHE IS AWESOME!

I hope when I go back to work I can still keep her journal/baby book up to date. I've made it a point to work on it once a week, which is easy while I'm home! I just hope I don't get too caught up with work/life to keep it going. Its one of my favorite things to do!

I love this baby girl with all my heart.