runnin' on E...

sleepy. like more sleepy than i was with a newborn, or when i was pregnant...THAT is pretty darn sleepy.

i've been back at work 3 weeks now and its starting to wear on me! it was so much easier to keep a clean house, have dinner ready, and enjoy my baby while i was home on maternity leave. now i feel like i'm just always moving, always doing something. i don't even get to see adelynn until 5:30 everyday when i pick her up, cause she's still sleeping when i leave for work :( this is what my day looks like:

-6:45 am wake up and get ready for work, make coffee, let the dogs out, get dinner started (if its crockpot!)
-7:20 am out the door and driving to work
-8am-5pm CRAZY day at work (especially right now cause we're in the middle of moving offices,so its chaos!)
- 5:30pm pick up adelynn and head home
-6pm start dinner
-7pm eat dinner
-7:30-9ish pm do the dishes, soak up as much time with adelynn as possible

and i'm usually in bed anywhere from 9:30-10pm.... then wake up, and do it all over again. Weekends should be my saving grace, but lately they've been packed with plans and SO busy; throw a sick baby, laundry, dishes,etc. on top of that...and its not much of a weekend.


and all i really want to do is spend time with joey & adelynn, that is my priority. but its hard with so many other obligations getting in the way.

i know my coworkers are probably wondering why i look such a hot mess everyday- i gave up on makeup! my hair is easy, it dries curly...but ive been lookin ROUGH, and i just dont even care. i'd rather sleep a little longer than worry about makeup.

i don't really see life slowing down till September either- i have stuff on my calender almost every single weekend! insane. i miss my baby, so much. no more tears in the mornings- but during the day i just miss her. my heart aches!

friday night we have a double date with B&Z and i'm SO looking forward to it, its been a long time since joey & i have gone out. but feelin' a little torn, cause Meme is babysitting and its really the first time we've had to get a 'sitter'. feeling a little guilty about leaving her when thats time i can be spending with her. but i know itll be good for joey & i and its necessary to have that time. so im going to try and not think about it, and just enjoy it. i only have one other thing going on this weekend (Neen's dress fitting, woo!) and after that i'll have the rest of the weekend (i hope) to relax and spend time with my two favorite people.

this working mom stuff is no joke. still hope one day i can be a SAHM, that would be AMAZING!