Drug Addiction: The Final Chapter

IT FINALLY HAPPENED!

I AM TOTALLY, 100% OFF ZOLOFT!

Best feeling EVER. I struggled hard in December. By January I was holding strong and still just suffering through it.

and now? I'm awesome :) No more pills, no more side affects, no more withdrawal symptoms.

Thank the LORD!

10 months.

10 months old!

- 2 naps a day

-3 bottles a day (shes started taking less formula though, 5-6 oz instead of 9)

- 100% table food at every meal

- crawling, pulling up, climbing

-taking steps more and more frequently unassisted

-walking assisted

- 10 teeth

-dancing and clapping all the time!

After 3 long weeks of a tooth coming in and having a fussy, snotty, drooly baby- she is 100% back to her happy self! She still has a small rash on her chin from all the drool but other than that she is doin' good! Climbing like crazy which scares the crap outta this mommy, but she is her daddy's daughter!

she is not only refusing baby food at this point, but is eating us out of house and home! funny at her 9 month check up the doctor said she was under weight! She eats like CRAZY. She will keep eating as long as you sit there feeding her,and loves to snack on cheerios throughout the day. Shes had some good eats too- country fried steak, corn bread, roast, black eyed peas, pasta, ground turkey, etc. she loves everything we've given her. Last night we tried peanut butter for the first time- and like i assumed, zero allergic reactions. she LOVED it!

she is also taking less formula- we continued making 9oz bottles like we have been for months but she as only taking maybe 5-6 so we started cutting it back, that seems to be the perfect amount for her! probably because she is eating so much table food now.

can't believe i'm actually actively planning her first birthday party! i've found myself weepy more and more lately!

9 months!

9 months on 1/12/13!

- 18 Ibs

-28 inches

- 9 month clothes

- size 4 shoe

-two naps a day

- three bottles

- LOTS of table food

- crawlin' like a champ

- NINE teeth

- pulling up on everything

-assisted walking like crazy

- a handful of sturdy unassisted steps

-new daycare

-self soothing extraordinaire

our baby girl is nine months old! i still see her as my itty bitty baby but she is far from the newborn we brought home! she is super active and all over the place. Actually at her 9 month check up this week the doctor told me she was under weight! i was shocked since i always hear what a big baby we have (which i dont agree with, shes tiny to me!). he said he wanted her closer to 20 ibs but it could be because shes tall, and how active she is. she is pretty much refusing baby food at this point so shes eating what we eat, LOVES cheerios, and bottles of course. Shes also a pro with the sippy cup finally, which usually has water or pedialite in it. no juice yet! she is our typical happy girl, always smiling-laughing-and clapping. She loves to play and tries her best to keep up with the big kids! she loves music and anytime it comes on she starts dancin along, it is the cutest thing ever. Violet has quickly become her FAVORITE toy!

 she started a new daycare this month and we LOVE IT so far.

the daycare is an in home daycare right here in our neighborhood, one street over! so its super convenient  and theres only a handful of other kids there which is perfect. she loves chasing older kids around,and shes getting lots of social interaction. AND (mommy bonus) shes getting the attention i want her to get, and is loved so much by Ms.Freda! I can text her anytime I want, she sends me pictures, keeps me updated through out the day, and has gotten her back on schedule with her naps 2x a day. we seriously couldnt be happier. Shes stimulated all day long, and so happy when i pick her up. it was a stretch financially but its so worth it. Ms.Freda reminds me and joey so much of his mom- and adelynn LOVES her.

im already brainstorming ideas for her first birthday party- i cant believe how soon it is! i took off work for her actual birthday so i can spend all day with her, itll be all about adelynn that day! :) i dont know what we'll do yet- i wanted to take her to the zoo or do something fun, but we'll see. we may just hang out at home, or go meet the grandma's for lunch. who knows!

this was by far my hardest photo shoot lol-- she was standing, crawling, and diving all over the place! it took me two different attempts to try to get a good one! very active baby ;)

8 months.

 8 month old baby girl!

-2 naps a day
- 3 bottles
-2 servings of fruits/veggies (lunch n dinner)


LOVES:

-peek a boo!
-bein' busy, so curious of everything
- crawling like a monkey
-standing/pulling up
-books, finally!
-anything she can chew
- mommy & daddy ;)


NEW:

-Standing hands free for a good length of time!
-1 tooth on bottom
- 2 teeth on top: one has broken through, waiting on the other!
- clapping! she is so cute when she does it too!
- sayin' MaMa!! (and i got it on video too!!)


i say it every month but really....8 months already!? SLOW DOWN TIME! She is such a happy, fun, playful baby! Even with the teething shes takin' it like a champ. A bit of fussiness but nothin' major. Sometimes she'll wake up at night and need some comfort, other times we'll hear her in her crib just a singin' her own little song! and chewin' on the hard part of her paci haha. poor baby, three teeth at once, and two of 'em are takin their time! as always, she is awesome & amazing..and all other good things! ;)

Baby's 1st Christmas

SANTA! I KNOW HIM!!!!

We finally met Santa! We went to Breakfast with Santa at Killian Hall put on by the Knights of Columbus- breakfast and pictures with Santa were free (donations welcome, and yes we donated!)- afterward they uploaded all the pictures on their website by last name so we just jumped on and downloaded! We waited about an hour and it was right in the middle of what should of been her nap time, so I was SO nervous we'd have a fussy crying baby. Once again she proved my worries wrong, and was our usual happy girl!

I also got some Christmas Shopping done today :) It was so hard not to go NUTS for Adelynn! There was SO MUCH to choose from. But I'm really happy with what I got:

I knew I wanted to get a book or two- and Walmart actually had a decent selection! I've heard great things about the llama llama books so picked this one up! I also got the book below, its a finger puppet book! She got one from Brittany (three little pigs) and loves it, thats truly what sparked her interest in books FINALLY! So I saw this one and knew it was perfect.

This cube is NOT what I got her-- this one is ginormous and about $80! But I got one very similar for WAY cheaper. I actually found it at Ross, surprising!

 Her own little smart phone! I went back and forth on this one. On one hand she is ALWAYS after our cell phones, so this could be hers. But on the other hand I don't want to create a habit of letting her use our phones, iPad, Kindle, etc. NOT JUDGING anyone who does! Its just something I want to avoid as long as possible. But I broke down and got it cause it teaches letters, numbers, colors, etc. Lights up makes noises- all that good stuff. And shes pretty young, so I'm gonna refrain from being 'that mom' for now ha ;)

And my favorite! Violet! I'd seen it before (boy version is Scout) but never really looked at it. I stood there looking at it for 20 minutes and quickly knew it was coming home with me. There are so many cool features about this little pup! I hooked it up and downloaded the software as soon as I got home. Personalized it for Adelynn (songs, fav food, colors, etc.) and even set it up to say her name! I was worried with a name like Adelynn it wouldnt recognize it, but it totally did. I've been playing with it the last 30 minutes and LOVE IT!

I am so dang excited for Christmas! and proud of my shopping, I didn't go overboard and spent probably...$50 total? not too shabby! I really dig everything I got her too!

Christmas is always my favorite, but especially this year cause of my booger bear. and I mean, WHO DOESN'T love cute Christmas outfits and headbands!? ;)

working mommy.

please....read THIS!


As I sit here in my fuzzy robe, obnoxious pink pig slippers, favorite PJs, and a big ol' glass of wine...I breath.

There is hope! There is a light! I MIGHT have very well found a way to be happy as a working mother!

Before I was pregnant, I was so career driven. I dropped out of college after three years- cause honest to God, it just wasn't for me. I knew the path I'd chosen would be a hard one, but I was ready to hit the ground running. I got my first big girl job at age 20- I started out reception but was determined to move up. Now? I'm a Project Coordinator, and proud of it. But somewhere along the line, I changed. Even after I got pregnant I had no desire to stay home full time so we never discussed it, much less planned for it. Then about half way through my pregnancy it was like a light bulb went off. I wanted to stay home. shit!

To this day I've not found a way to make that happen. We just cannot afford for me to be out of work. period. So what do I do? I found myself so unhappy. My house is a mess, dinner is never planned or anywhere close to being ready before 8pm, and the most awful thing ever? I was getting no time with my baby, who is growing up way too fast for my liking. I'd get home, feed her, start dinner, bath her, put her to bed. I'd get MAYBE 45 minutes with her every night. I HATED IT. I felt guilt, like the most awful Mommy ever. I knew I would never get this time back, but I didnt know how to change it.

and then? prayers were answered. I was approached about a possible position. and I knew right away it could not be more perfect for my situation. I'll work 7-3 Monday through Thursday and till noon on Fridays. Um...that means like 4 hours a night with my baby! And over all just more TIME. To clean my house, get dinner ready for when Joey gets home, less stress at work, no bringing home work with me. its truly a win win!

I really feel like this is the ideal situation for our little family, and it makes me SO happy to know I'll have time with my girl, and to actually be a mommy!

Drug Addiction: Part 2

Part 2 of my original post 'Drug Addiction' from September!

It has not been easy! I got to the point where I was able to go 5 days in between taking pills. My OB advised me to cut the time, not the dosage as I was doing. So I took a full dose but tried to space out the days. After day 5 if I didn't take a pill I would immediately feel the affects. I keep trying though. If I stuck to the 5 day time line, I should've taken a pill this last Thursday. However, I wasn't feeling too bad so decided not to and see how long  I could make it. The whole "suffer through it" theory. Here I am on Monday and still haven't taken a pill. I wasn't feeling great all weekend, but not nearly as bad as usual. I had the shutters but no nausea, dizzy spells, or flu like symptoms so I kept trucking.

Then last night, in the middle of the night...it hit. SO SICK. I was up a lot through out the night with the worst pain and discomfort in my stomach. But I wasn't actively getting sick. After no sleep I decided to call out of work and try to make it through today. Maybe this is the worst of it and I'll wake up feeling awesome tomorrow? We'll see. It sucks but I am determined to get off of it.

Let me remind you- Zoloft saved me from my post partum depression and I will always be grateful for that. So its not evil! BUT, my reasons for getting off of it are because I have no insurance so can't afford the doctor visit to renew the Rx, and because I want it out of my system so I'm good to go if/when we decide to have baby #2. I'd much rather deal with it now and get it over with then decide to 'cross that bridge when we come to it' and try to get off it when we decide to get pregnant, or worse GET pregnant and THEN decide to get off of it.

So theres the update. Still trying! Such a bitter sweet relationship with this drug!