It has not been easy! I got to the point where I was able to go 5 days in between taking pills. My OB advised me to cut the time, not the dosage as I was doing. So I took a full dose but tried to space out the days. After day 5 if I didn't take a pill I would immediately feel the affects. I keep trying though. If I stuck to the 5 day time line, I should've taken a pill this last Thursday. However, I wasn't feeling too bad so decided not to and see how long I could make it. The whole "suffer through it" theory. Here I am on Monday and still haven't taken a pill. I wasn't feeling great all weekend, but not nearly as bad as usual. I had the shutters but no nausea, dizzy spells, or flu like symptoms so I kept trucking.
Then last night, in the middle of the night...it hit. SO SICK. I was up a lot through out the night with the worst pain and discomfort in my stomach. But I wasn't actively getting sick. After no sleep I decided to call out of work and try to make it through today. Maybe this is the worst of it and I'll wake up feeling awesome tomorrow? We'll see. It sucks but I am determined to get off of it.
Let me remind you- Zoloft saved me from my post partum depression and I will always be grateful for that. So its not evil! BUT, my reasons for getting off of it are because I have no insurance so can't afford the doctor visit to renew the Rx, and because I want it out of my system so I'm good to go if/when we decide to have baby #2. I'd much rather deal with it now and get it over with then decide to 'cross that bridge when we come to it' and try to get off it when we decide to get pregnant, or worse GET pregnant and THEN decide to get off of it.
So theres the update. Still trying! Such a bitter sweet relationship with this drug!
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