40 weeks

well, my due date is this week. Thursday to be exact. I have an appointment with the Doc today so we'll see what they say as far as progress...my last few visits I haven't been dilated at all. So I'm honestly not getting my hopes up on the progress front. I'm thinking since my appt. is today but my due date isn't until Thurs they'll end up scheduling me another appt. NEXT Monday...and if I make it to that then we'll schedule an induction. Which I REALLY don't want to do.

I woke up today feeling defeated and emotional- but a big part of that may just be fatigue. I haven't slept well at all. Everyone was so sure she would come early that I started to believe it too. I want to make it clear before I get all the judgements... I'm not rush her for selfish reasons. or maybe it is considered selfish-- I just really wanted to go in to labor on my own, I really don't want to be induced or use pitocin if I don't have to. So I was trying to help her along and get things started. we tried EVERYTHING....

-Sex

-Nipple stimulation

- Eating a whole pineapple

-Pomegranate

-Raspberry tea

-walking, walking, and more walking

-Exercise ball

- Eggplant Parm

- Pressure points on hands/feet

I think the only thing I haven't tried is hot sauce or castor oil- and I don't plan on doing either...I'm not gonna make myself miserable and it NOT work! there was a full moon AND a storm last week so we were hoping that would help too. but got nothin'.

i'll get crampy, back pains, few contractions... and then it just stops. frustrating! yesterday morning i lost my plug, or part of it at least- so i'm hoping that means she will come on her own in a few days. fingers crossed.

so anyway...feeling defeated this morning. and exhausted. we're so ready to meet her, and I've hit that wall of just...DONE being pregnant. but shes still in there for a reason, and she WILL come out when shes ready-- hopefully this week. and if not...then medicine will help her along by next week. I just really hope we have this baby on our own terms this week. we'll see.

come on out sweet girl....we are so ready to meet you!