nerves.

so i have 9 weeks until my due date...7 till she is full term..and who knows if she'll come early, on time, or late.

and me? i'm a planner. which does not mix well with child birth!

i've been nervous about L&D but in the last couple days...i've become straight up freaked out about it. i mean obviously i need to just woman up and deal cause shes gonna come out one way or another-and i cannot wait to meet her! but its the whole process of her getting here that scares the crap outta me!

i think its just not knowing when, or where, or how i'll go in to labor. i'm planning on working up until birth- and i'm crossing my fingers (and legs!!) my water doesn't break at work or something. how embarrassing! i HAVE read that a small percentage of women actually have their water break naturally, most have to have it done at the hospital.

joey & i are watching this DVD :

so in the first few sessions we learned the 6 preliminary signs of labor, and 3 actual signs of labor. So both of us feel confident we know what to look for. but we have no way of knowing when its game time!

and then theres actually going through labor...and delivery. i think its fear of the unknown (the planner in me doesn't like that!). i'm scared to death of extreme pain, tearing, all the blood, complications, OH MY GOD i mean you just never know whats gonna happen!! i've heard HORROR stories, but i've also heard stories about L&D that were a cake walk and pain free.

i'm just scared, plain and simple. and i'm not ashamed to admit that one bit. its been on my mind more and more lately, and i just keep praying the remainder of my pregnancy goes smoothly and L&D goes well too.

joey (of course), my mom, and his mom will be in the L&D room with us so i know he and i both will have lots of support to get through it. and i know we'll have tons of prayers coming from the waiting room that'll be full of family and friends!

and Adelynn? will be totally worth it all, trust me i already know this. i cannot wait to meet our little girl, i know she will change our lives forever in the best way possible.

for now i'm going to enjoy February! Full of baby showers and fun stuff. I'm going to try and push aside all my fears and worries till March; i'll be sticking close to home during March in case she decides to come early-- so i'll have plenty of time to worry then lol.

for those of you that have prayed for us during this pregnancy-- THANK YOU. we don't take them for granted and appreciate them so much. PLEASE continue those prayers!!